i wish i could say it doesnt bother me
but it does
its this annoying feeling and emotion that keeps gnawing at me and refuses to go away.
i detest myself for being this way.

i need to watch my surroundings before i shoot my mouth off.
am never ever gonna show my face in front of hedwig again.
argh.
am so totally mortified and embarrassed
at that moment i wished i i could have just dropped over the railing and disappeared